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"peforming arts and pizzaaaaa!"
11 October 2002 @ 11:02 a.m.
 | You're a hopeless romantic. You fall in love easily and quickly, and often have your heart broken. You like romantic movies, books, and you're always trying to think of some way to wow your honey. People call you sentimental or idealistic, and sometimes they even make some comment about they might vomit if they have to listen to go on and on any more. Phew. Some day, though, you will make someone very happy.
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Be cool! Take the What Do You Want Out Of Life? Quiz Stupid quiz. Blah. Anyway, I will post those pictures up later. I'm downloading some karaoke versions of songs to make a karaoke CD, seeing as I have now got space in my room to "perform", hooray! I'm kinda feeling a little under the weather, but I'm not admitting it to anyone because I don't want to spoil the day. I'm spending the day with Craig. He has to sort out his website first, but I guess while he's doing that I could start work on some ideas for my own. I want to go out later on. Just to Pizza Hut, and my treat. I'm so envious of so many people. Claire and Stewart, Rich and Crystal, Kevin and Sarah, my ex Phil and Amy. I'm pretty sure there's someone I'm forgetting, but that's besides the point. Oh, yeah, Chris and Carrie-Ann. Besides, who wants to hear my moaning anyway?
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TIME: 5:57pm
Ah forget it. I don't give a fuck. Here's the pictures:
Wow, my room before. It's not usually that messy, I went through my built in cupboard to get out all the toys. But my desk and my shelves are usually like that.
This is during the painting. My dad had cleared up all his stuff though. Now that area has some perspex attached to the wall, just where my bed goes for a headboard.
Tada! Doesn't it look so pretty!? And just look at my SHELVES!!! My mum walked in and just stood with her mouth open, because it looks so tidy. Hey, that was 15 years worth of junk! I even had a silvery glitter Barbie Doll shoe on the left one. It was just one, and I haven't played with Barbies in over 10 years!
Mum's making me some chips now cos I'm hungry. I didn't eat anything since I got back from swimming because I thought, well was hoping more like, that me and Craig was going to go to Pizza Hut. He says he's tired and that he's going to bed early. Can't complain because he worked 10pm-6am for the past 2 days. But after last night when I got upset and all because of what I brought up, I kinda think he's just trying to spend a little time away from me. We spent 3 days apart already, then 2 together, and at the moment it's 2 days apart again but could be 3. I asked what he's doing on Sunday and he says he doesn't know because his boss is gonna call him or something. I'm working awkward full time hours next week (12:30-9:30pm most days) so I'm hardly gonna see him and if I do, it probably won't be for long, cos he'll either be at work, or sleeping because he has to be up early.
All I brought up was what he said to me in Australia. That he said we could get engaged for my 20th birthday when he burst out with: "Ugh, no! Why would I want to do that?" Point one, I just brought it up, I didn't suggest it. Point Two, he hasn't been over my house in MONTHS let alone sleep over, and I want him to sleep over, just once. Grr, everything is so god damn frustrating. It was what he said that made me cry and want to get up and just go home. Sadly I was sat by the wall so I had to climb over him first but he managed to grab me and pull me back and give me a hug. That's beside the point :( He shouldn't have said it. He should have said something like: "I'm not ready yet" and then I could have just told him that I don't think we're ready yet either (See specified points). He won't even come over to my house to EAT.
It's just those little things that make me so frustrated and upset, that I've gone over and had meals with him and his family, I make the effort all the time to go and see him, and the one time I wanted to stay over I slept on the sofa in his lounge. Point is, I make the effort. Ok, so I got practically no sleep, but at least I could say he let me stay over, right?
I don't mean to moan about him. I love him to pieces, I really do, more than anything. I'm nervous about the job, and spending whole days with my dad isn't the best thing in the world. On the bright side, I spent most of the day with Stewart :) We went to the place where he works, and used the pool, Sauna, Jacuzzi and Stew also took me into the steam room cos it has Eucalyptus in and it helped whatever I was coming down with, so I feel better just sleepy. Redecorating and cleaning for 3 days is really hard and tiring.
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