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"I want to get away from it all!"
03 September 2002 @ 11:32 a.m.
I really shouldn't have shouted at Craig in the car, no matter how bad things are at the moment. I don't want to live at home anymore. My dad is slowly becoming unbearable. Now think how worse that is now he's been told the factory he works at (for over 15 years) is now closing, and now he won't have a job. I've been basically told to go and go to the job center myself. I was intending on doing that today ANYWAY. Ask Craig, cos I told him. Stewart hardly talks to me much anymore, and that's even when I get to see him. He's wrapped up in his new life now, with Claire. I know he stayed here last night, whether it was with her or on his own, I don't know, but by 9am he had gone. I wish that I could escape this house for a night or two. To cuddle up to Craig at night and him be the first thing I see when I wake up. Whether it meant I had to get up at 6am because he had to get up for work, or not. I don't care. Anything to get out of this house. I don't see mum much either. She's always at work. And when I do see her, and talk to her, it's often about dad complaining about something else. She doesn't stick up for me either. When dad threatened to kick me out... she told me that it wasn't on. Did she tell him that? No. Dad's gone out. I'm left alone here at the moment, and it's too quiet. I don't like it. Now I've explained why I seem to be in my own little world, crying at the littlest things. That and I started my period today. Talk about cramps :S
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